Ode to Jessie
-the cry in the darkness-
There's a place I no longer go
because of your beauty,
Where I'm washed over
and engulfed in sorrow too hard to bear.
There's a place where we ate together
and gazed out to nature together.
You know where it is.
I would say, Come up Jessie, it's lunch-time
or
Come on Jessie, smoko!
Upstairs we'd go, out to the deck
Me to my swing-seat, you to your deckrail.
If I had yoghurt we'd share it,
you loved yoghurt...
We had the best kind of friendship, you and I.
Mutual love, mutual care, mutual sharing.
It doesn't seem right that you're gone,
You were too healthy, too lively, too bright,
too Me.
But I put out my hand at night and you no longer
lick it with your tiny tongue.
I call your name out of habit and you no longer
come.
So wait for me, my darling, for when my time is
ripe
Wait for me with my other darlings gone before.
I grieve, I wait, I long, I beseech,
aching to feel the touch of your silken fur,
to feel your paws around my shoulder, to carry you
to the window to watch.
I grieve, I wait, I long, I beseech.
My Jessie-Belle, my chocolate box pussy,
my Bella, my Poppy, my Missy.
Tuppy grieves for you, too.
We try to comfort each other
but you are sorely, sorely missed, my darling.
The days wear on...
and still I ache. Oh so deeply
my precious girl.
Life is so grey now -
you were my bright spot,
the joy that kept me going
in my time of hardship.
Now hardship and sighing go on forever...
There is no comfort
in my anguish
I do not feel God's arms.
I feel lost in a cold, harsh universe.
I have asked
and will keep on asking
for Reassurance.
If I get nothing, see nothing, hear nothing,
what will I do?
I will still wait.
And Remember
And
Cherish
You
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